~~bangkok trip~~

it been a long long time din't come here to write~~~ huhu~~~

i went to bangkok wit family for christmas (sort of).
once i back from the airport i start to write this since its still kinda fresh in my head.

kinda surprise i got my very first follower in this blog, shall i be happy wit it?

we reach bangkok on wednesday nite which is 23rd of Dec. we all r tired, we juz eat something then we head to our apartment to rest. apartment or hotel suppose to be a clean place for us to rest, but i saw a tiny cockroach running on the bed i m about to sleep on ==

kinda creepy huh~~

anyway, i share the same room wit my grandpa, i cant really sleep becuz of his snoar.....

one thing i hate about vacation is u gotta wake up EARLY!!! we need to be prepare at 8am.
lazy lazy lazy~~~

our first destiny is to safari world a.k.a zoo~~~ maybe i childish or wat. at my age now, i still like to go to zoo n i do enjoy this trip alot. we saw all sort of animal from the familiar one to the

strange one~~~ some unexpected scene too. isit mating season already? this is one big horny lion~~~ ^^

if its possible i would wish to ride on it~~~~ seems fun to do so~cute rite??? wanna take picture wit it so bad~~~ ><

then we also saw some other animal like tiger, giraffe, bears, buffalo, deer etc etc.

me, me, me~~~~here is the bird world (i think), i bought the sun flower seeds to feed them, 25batt, alot fun here. they wont even harm or bite u. my grandpa kinda atract few of them even he din feed them and they land on my grandpa shoulder. i want it land on mine but they din. so bad~~

i love baby tiger~~~~ though kinda scare of it claw. wanted to carry it up n kiss but abit scare it will scratch my face. sad~~ how gud it is if i can bring it home~~~ huhu~~

hehe~~~ abit childish~ i admit i am. if u don like then u r please to get lost~~ :)

anyone got any idea wat this is? turkey family????? long lost cousin~~ i remember it start wit "c" cassoway???baby hippo~~ cute but smelly~~ =.=

the next day we went to chao phraya river for a cruise tour. they r still ppl sellin stuff on the river. then we went to some temple n palace which i don enjoy much. cuz i m not really into history thingy. buti hav to tell tat thai ppl do respect their king n their god alot. no matter where u go u will see their king face all over the place.

this is no ordinary ship, its a mobile bank on river~~thia is taken on top the temple. not really on top at all. but juz look at the stairs, its so steep. lucky i din fall down~ then we went to the gems factory during the evening, aftern havin dinner we head to my favourite place. calypso pondan show~~ the transexual looks quite ok to me onli. but i m really into one of the hot guy there. i was so hopin to take a photo wit him but my family is around plus i m kinda shy so end up din do it. kinda regret.

she gave me a very class n elegant feel~~ like her~~~ woohuuu

this is the guy i like so much~~ he was juz infront of me tat time. but still cant take his facial picture. sad!!!!!

yeah~~~ another cute guy here~~~ but i still like the one i mention be4~~

then the last day in bangkok we went to the weekends market called chatuchat~~ i bought quite a couple of things from there. very cheap much cheap then our local nite market. u can even get a wooden chair for 75batt which is about rm7.50. we then take our flight to to kl lo. feel like not really hav fun cuz wit family. hope can go there again wit fren or maybe alone if i brave enough~~ kakaka

~~where is the one~~

i couldn't agree more that u r the most suitable ppl for me. but u r reserved adi. and u r or maybe was a total jerk to me or even as a person. there r a moment tat i really wish those thing din happen or maybe u will come bac to me. not replyin or answer my call is one of the thing tat i hate the most n u often did so. wat do i aspect? i m no one to u. wat m i jokin here? no one will pay attention to those who r not important or not interestin at all.

quite hate this feelin, hard to get wat i wan, u r juz like one in a million to me. how m i goin to find another better one in a million? its harder than hard....
shall i start to give up now?i m kinda tired wit all this searchin n findin...

when or how will "u" willin to show up...?

~~I'm not missing you~~

its been a week u had left me. though its hard to handle it for the first day. i thought i can handle this feeling or so call love disaster but i still miss u somehow. those sweet and funny moment...
do u still remember when i was half asleep in ur arm? my saliva was drippin out from my mouth n it dripped on ur arm. tats kinda embarass n funny moment.

i still remember the second time we meet up in mid valley. u ask for a hug n i gave a "couple" hug n kissed u on ur cheek. kinda brave n shy tat time but who cares cuz i love u.

there alot things i still miss about u. especially the way u touch cheek n neck in ikea which we last met... i was so hopin i din't had the so called fight or emotional situation wit u. but its all too late now. i tried n tried n tried so get over all this feelin, i even try to hook up for another guy, somehow u juz pop out of my mind....

how can i not miss u.......?

~easy come easy go?~

how should i say this? i should say he dump me or i should say he said he is not suitable for me and ask me let him go. which sounds nicer?

i told u i don mind the distance, the type of relation we havin adn u also say those r not the problems, u siad the problem is u. u r not suitable for me? this is things for u to decide, its for me to decide.

isit becuz i like to tantrum n make u think so? then i will strat n learn not to throw tantrum. wat i wan is juz u to pamper me. few drops of tears juz slip through my face, u r the first guy i cry so badly. now even worst, more coming from my eye. sounds funny huh? i really miss. i don wan u to go. i don even know u will still come here or not. y m i writing all this. for who to see?

i m really sorry. don go pls.... there r alot of things i wan2 do wit u. we havent hav one pic yet also.. life is real suck. i hate it so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~~还爱吗~~

每一对情侣在一起一定有他们自己的开心和不要开心的事，我和你也一样啊，没得例外。
和你在一起的那一刻，答应你的要求那一刻，我就知道我和你所走的路会比其他人更难走。
这已经是第二次了啦。还记得我所说的第二次是什么吗？？
我看你也没什么记得了吧？还记得那次我闹着要见你可是你不答应吗？才前几天的事罢了。闹到稍微比较凶了，你就不理我直到我给你讯息。就是昨晚，我讯息你了，也闹了点脾气，我所闹的东西都很明显的有写在讯息里。可是到现在，你也还是一样，没里我。。。我等了你一正天啦。我很想知道，你还爱我吗？有或是我应该问，打从一开始你有爱过我吗？
你还记得明天的约会吗？你上星期说明天会来找我的。你星期三就要飞回去了。haiz....
觉得自己有点笨哦。我之前所写的东西你有否来看我都不懂，我竟然笨到在这问你问题。
真可笑。。。

~~love style~~

How I should start wit this? After I look through some gay movie and some love comment from couples. I start to think alot kind of thing. Will gay love really end up like wat is shown in the movie? End wit sad ending? Or can it be like those comment from the couple - sweet and romance. But will this sweet and romance last for long?

Most of the time I do really feel jealous of these couples. They seems like the most perfect match for each other based on their comments. Maybe they been through some hard time which I dono, but compare to mine, I felt mine is juz to flat and normal. I always wanted to have a wild, excited, adventurous wit romance kind of love. But someone did tell me I should love sensibly. He said those wild and excited love may sound nice and fun but it wont last for sure.

For my age, u should know that I will rather pick wild and excited for this moment.
Bebe, i do really wish we could be like any other gay couples. I know u r fear of the public thought but wats the point being affraid of it. Taking some topless pic wont hurt much. I can promise not to show it out.

Sometimes I did asked my self y everyone can show their lovely pic and talk about themselve on the net but y cant we? Sayin this those mean that our relationship sucks or wat. At least let me feel the wildness once a blue moon or anything not so plain. I know wat other ppl do doesnt mean that we hav to follow, doesnt mean its rite, but cant u treat it as once a life time thing? i m sure u will say I start to complaint alot again, but complaint can let ppl know how u think, wat u feel in a more direct way, though it may hurt some feel, somehow feelin can be over come through time rite?

I know I cant expect u to change, cuz once u change it wont be u anymore. Its juz tat sometimes think of such thing and relate it wit us, juz feel abit down n sad. 真想拥有你的一切一切，你的心，你的思想，你的灵魂。。。

~~brothers gathering~~

Gosh, wat a day. Today I have to handup my assignment, cuz its the last day to submit it. I don really think I did the assignment well. Everything is so last minute work. The assignment require to link wit psychology principle using theories to support my point. I think I barely got any theory there. I juz when to college n submit my assignment then bac to my parents shop le.

I hav no idea wat to do in the shop. The shop was close for gate repairment but I wanted to go out for "kai kai". I start calling n sms-ing anyone who is free to go out wit me. Luckily my god brothers are free to go out wit me. At first I was blamming on them for not calling me out as they had adi planned to go out be4 I called. This is the first time I m meeting all 4 of my god bro and might also be the last time for 4 of us to meet up. Cuz one of my god bro is goin to leave us and bac to his hometown for a long time. (I know thins after the gathering onli) I juz don understand why his parent willin to stop his studies due to one failing paper? hey bro, its ur future not their, u should fight for it. Wat r u goin to do after this then? Will u be sure that u will like the job n stick wit it? Will it goin to support u currency? U really need to talk wit them.

besides my 3 "little"brothers, i also did few other guys. one of the guy called dian dian r kinda attractive~~ at first he really gave me a very bad impression in the forum. but after talkin wit him, he is not tat bad. Infact, he is kinda fun to hang around with. There was a moment i was so into him. He is so smart, resourceful.... hard to describe it in words maybe is the inner charm I think. While jacky is those bad boy type tat i like. Eric is the dum dum n cute look. Gosh~~ so attractive, feel like wanna rape them~~ haha~~

Did i mention anythin about my brothers? They look so diff from their pic!!! 4 of us r wearing spec but i m to shortest!! swt~~~ Talkin about brothers, I feel abit sad about it. One of them has to leave soon. things happen so fast. Really wish it din't happen. Is there anything I can do to stop this? He will be less online as he go bac to his hometown. This will make it more hard to keep in touch. I m afraid that our brothers relation will tend to be losen... Juz pray and hope that all of us will get our freedom soon(especially me) so that we can meet anytime we wan2.

lala, have to be strong on wat u wan. I know it may not be easy for u, u might say tat I din go through as wat u did. But at least try to fight for wat u wan even the posiblity is low. Things tend to change as u wan it to change. If i know u goin to leave, i think i will seranade u there. Love u and all the best.

this is the our brothers picture. although i look very horrible in the pic but juz look at our smile. juz look at us, we seems like we r the richest man at tat moment. no money or thing can exchange for a moment like tat.

i tend to like this pic more, cuz i look way more better and normal than the other one~~~

~~nice day? bad day? fortunate day? unfortunate day?~~

Today I went to interview my bebe god bro for assignment purpose. I go to his god bro house together with bebe lo~~ When I reach the station, I was kinda blur n lost, cuz I never been to tat station be4 as I seldom go out from my from my parent sight. =.= ( kinda pity huh? but my parents really not so strict la~~)
After I met bebe, I ride on his motor to his god bro house lo. Last time he don let me put his around his waist when got ppl around, cuz he said he mind how other ppl look n think of him. But today, I put my hand on his shoulder lo, he ask me something tat make me happy. "why you put your hands here(shoulder)?" then he continue with "put ur hands around me ma.(something like tat)".
I was so happy n touch after listen to wat he said. he start to change his thought n mind. I dono he is changing it for me or wat, cuz he told me be4 tat I should change for myself, not for other ppl or him. but this time, I will assume he is changin tat for me(perasan hor?).

When interviewing his god bro, I totally dono wat his god bro talkin about. There was a moment my brain like sort of blank. He talkin IT wit me, I dono anything about it. Then I try to understand n write the thing tat I think is important lo.
Tats y I hate interview ppl, talkin wit ppl, dealing wit ppl in formal way n so on. But wat to do, I m a psychology student, I hav to face all this problem, cuz I really wish to be a clinical psychology but not those who issue medicine.
After interview then he chat while wit his god bro then we left lo. I don think I hav to discribe the sweet moment after we left rite? Although over topic don really match all the time, but at least we hav something to talk about, can get n gain info about others.
Wat I wanna say is he start to open up alot wit me lo~~~~ so happy. When on the motor, my tears nearly slip off cuz of wat he said to me be4~~~

I thought this is a sweet n happy day to me till a jerk strike in n ruin my day. I was tryin to buy clothes for my cousin n me in Pavillion. I try on some clothes n jeans. When I was changin in the fittin room, this salesman come in n give me other clothes to try, then I thought its ok, cuz both r guys n he can onli see my underwear onli not my dick.
Then he use his finger to put in my pants n see whether its too tight or not, fine then, cuz i hav similar experience be4 where by my fren n the salewomen was there aso. Then he put his finger in my underwear n touch my hair. He said "wow, u hav alot of hair." fuck him, then later on he pull my underwear to see my dick in a rough way n sayin i hav a big dick.
He is so ugly n fat!!! Incase u wanna know, he is a chinese guy, fat, ugly old, working in the EX shop at Pavillion sixth floor.
Becuz of this idiot, my happy day r mess up by him. But bebe told me not to angry about it lo. He ask me not to think of things which not important that will ruin the happy day. Its hard to overcome it u know, bebe~~

流泪了。。。。

我在家常给家人骂，时常那我和谁家的孩子比。
我真的很不喜欢，很讨厌。。
我要的是一个能疼惜我，照顾我的男朋友，而不是像我家人酱来骂我，那别人和我比。
你妹妹是妹妹，我是我，根本是两个不同机构的。
生活环境的因数是会影响一个人的性格成长，难道你不懂吗？
我真的很累了。。。
你就不能迁就我吗？？
就连现在我写着这个blog我也很小心翼翼的。
是为了避免你再挑剔我的错误于不对。
只是要一个人的疼惜那么简单的东西，难道要付出一个代价吗？

~~ what a day ~~

As usual lo. got alot assignment, discussion wit group member. But this time is wit other group de. A girl as our group leader. For me, she is very gud in leadin a group lo. In this group, although i din go find any material hor, during the discussion wit them, i feel less stress compare wit the other group tat I mention before. In this group, watever my thought, opinion were heard n appreciated like tat lo. I feel more comfortable to speak in this group but not in the other group.

So, bebe, u still think its my problem tat my dealing things wit tat uncomfortable group?
(you don hav to answer, cuz i know, for sure u will say its still my problem)

About the carnegie's book, i search it on the internet le. i roughly know wats its all about. This is a book which recommend by my bebe. He ask me to read it, "How to win and influence people".
U knew i like to complain de ma, yet u ask me read tat book, aso ask me not to complain de. swt lo~~

When I was in the bus on my way home, since there is no seat, then i hav to stand lo. sittin infront me is a indian girl (no discrimination at all). I was lookin at the tattoo on her arm for a moment, she thought i was lookin at her breast!!! Oh pls!! She is not my type! I wasnt in a gud mood tat time adi, yet such stupid thing happen, makes me even more piss off lo.

~~ where is the love ~~

I dont know wat is wrong wit me. i feel like needing someone to love me so badly. Why am I so impatience? sometimes I do ask myself, do I really know wat love is? Hows love like? Shall I juz wait there and do nothing? Wont it be harder to get it if I juz wait there and did nothing?

Looking at others pairing up, their relationship n their lovely act towards each other, sweet talks... really brings up my jealousy towards everything that I don hav. Sometimes the devil in me makes me wanna tear those lover apart, make them suffer wat I am suffering. Such a stupid thought tat I hav in me.

I do wish there is a guy will cheer me when I m down. Listen to my thought, help n guide me on watever I m weak at. Lending his arm n shoulder when I m in joy or pain. Serenade me to sleep. Sayin sweet n caring thing to me. But he will really show up n say," hey, lil jason, I m the one you lookin for all this while, I m all yours now..". I believe i can squiz out few drop of tears at tat time. But he will he show up? That is still a question n unsolve mystery to me....

~~stupid stupid stupid~~

很不开心啊...
我的group member个个都好像很厉害将的，和他们一起虽然assignment mark可能会高些，可是还是会觉得自卑咯。我的group里唯一的女生啊，她的英文可说是很强的咯。他们说要轮流当group leader，我真的很不想咯，我的领导能力不是很好的。有人说要选那个女生当下个 assignment leader, 她听了过后就说如果她当leader，我们其他人会很痛苦的咯，加上她做出了些很高尚的样子，我听了她这么说我开始不喜欢她了，甚至讨厌她。可能是因为我不喜欢被人管的理由吧，听了她那么说我真的立刻觉得不悦。在他们的group里，总是觉得被他们瞧不起。当一个笨蛋真的很辛苦哦。。。

没人想被看扁的，问题是我真的没他们那么厉害，我也不是那种爱读书的类型啊。

10月中就要考试了，书本全部都是厚厚的。怎么来读啊？读得那么辛苦，对我的将来真的有保障吗？？我也不懂，只是快累坏了。。。

~~很乱啊~~

还以为过了一段时间自己会忘了他，可是今天在class里见到他。我心情很复杂，很乱。我不懂为什么我会一直望着他，当时我感觉很生气，就像有一团怨气塞着我的胸很不舒服。过后他看见我了，也sms我确认。5mins breaks 的时候他和我解释了很多，可是我仍然很气，那时我开始觉得有要哭的感觉了，还好没掉泪。我上完课他说载我回家。我答应了。我真的很矛盾，难道水瓶座的人都是将的吗？？？只要对方致歉，水瓶座们就可以不计较以前的，原谅了对方吗？？我觉得很自我折磨，好痛苦哦。。。我将子好像很对不起我的bebe,感觉有种罪恶感。虽然他说当回朋友，可是他之前将对我，我竟然原谅他，还和他当回朋友，好像很对不起bebe。 bebe, i feel guilty about it. i m really sorry if u don like it.

等下还要写assignment好烦哦~很多东西要读咯。lecturer讲的东西明白一点一点~~~好深哦。
haiz...我的英文好烂哦。。。。希望不会太烂咯。加油加油！！！

~~他飞了~~

有开心，也有不开心的是发生。。。
开心的是我学会戴隐形眼镜了咯。而不开心是他飞去europe两个星期，在这两个星期可以说是很难可以和他联络咯。

平时，我每晚都一定会和他video cam聊天。无论我多累，我仍然要看见他，甚至是一下子也要。他也对我很好，有次他回到家很夜也累了，原本想sms和我说不想上网，可是他想我可能等了很久（确实有点久）就上网和我聊咯。很开心哦。

现在他要去将远又不能一直联络，晚上有不能和他cam怕不习惯哦~~~希望两星期快点过~~~过后我的功课能做到好的出来~~~~yeah~~~~~ 要加油加油~~~

~~很烦咯~~

才开课两个星期，那些assignment就一直来个不停。又不是和group member很熟咯。要做research about doin business successfully in a particular country. 还需要知道他们当地的culture to do business successfully。 我group member好选不选，选india,都不懂要在那里做什么生意，那里又不发展，又治安不好，很多都不好。他们要我找india最有名的生意和companies. 将厉害，你们自己找咯。

买了只乌龟，可是不东要叫它什么好，guguzai好吗？？？

刚才又被我妈讲，真是讨厌死了。什么都要管。拜托！！！ 我已经19了，可以别在烦了吗？？
你们看了，肯定会说我不对啦，要是你和朋友出去，你家人问你你的朋友叫什么名，住哪里，怎么认识，去哪里，做什么，去几点到几点，电话号码是什么。。。换是你，你能忍多久呢？很讨厌，生气啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！死掉算了。做人还有什么意思，生活什么都要做到最好，不然就被淘汰，现在还要被绑的那么紧。死了不是更轻松吗？！

~~ pet pet~~

今天又去了IOI Mall买东西咯。
本来是说想见朋友，可是他不在。好咯，那就到出和家人逛咯。就要买新耳环给自己，买了两个。 过后就在临走前，在new wing买小动物的档口看看咯。越看越想买咯，我知道我妈妈不给的，还是偷偷的买了。那里主要是卖鱼咯。也有卖小龙虾，hermit crab（背着贝壳的螃蟹），螃蟹等等。
我就买了小龙虾咯，我的龙虾还蛮凶的咯。它一直要爬出那个缸咯。希望它快高长大,然后我就可以吃掉它了..哈哈~~开玩笑的啦~~~

~~去 kai kai~~

有耳洞了~ ^^

》新短发《

我之前的长发咯~~

昨天约好了我第一任男朋友12noon去mid valley 的咯。到了12点我打给他，他竟然还在睡觉！
气死我咯。他又没有驾车涡，所以就等他等到2点才到kl central咯。

到了mid valley就去剪头发咯，剪两个小时多咯。坐到我屁股开花咯。过后就到处走走看看咯。走到cinema那层，想打洞，可是犹豫了很久，不只是怕痛咯，也怕我妈会骂。最后还是鼓起勇气去打了。打的时候，我抓著他的手。其实不是我想像中那么痛咯。

过后吃了sushi就回家了咯。我已经尽量避开我家人的视线了，最终还是给我爸看见。我妈还blur blur不懂。辛好没骂我咯。家人都说好看。hmmm~~

~~第二天的课~~

haiz~~~ 还是那么失败。。。。
今天第一堂课就给lecturer问"what has project management got to do with psychology?"
当然不只是问我而已啦，不过，我才year 1 student罢了，就问我。很不爽咯。。
我今天有尝试认识新朋友咯，认识两个女生，可是她们好像不太想理睬我哦，连我的马来朋友也感觉得到咯。。。。
不只assignment一大堆，还要买一大堆的text book而且还是很贵的咯。。好烦啊！！！
对了，我想打耳洞和绑牙咯。。可是有怕贵和痛。。。

~~第一天的课~~

今天第一天上课就迟到了真不爽。我7。10am将就去kl central等巴士了啦，等到7。50am才来那么一辆。今天开始他们的system都改了，之前是两块钱给全天的嘛，现在是rm1。90给去程罢了，回程又要给钱。全部人都因为要挖那个九毛钱而拖延了时间，都不懂哪个笨蛋猪把system改成这样的。

到了college已经是8。30am了。我很生气咯。还我迟，不过我也有错啦，我是应该早点的。hehe..... 那我就赶这去class咯。走到class的building的附近，有一位女生也是读一样课系的，她不懂班在哪里，就跟我一起走咯。本来以为就将我个朋友作伴了啦，进到班上，我和她 一起坐咯。当lecturer说10min break的时候，她找到她朋友，跑去和她朋友一起坐了。丢下我一个人孤零零的~~好可怜啊~~~那个女生蛮美的咯。。好可惜哦~~她丢下我一个人。。。wuwuwuwu.... 班上也蛮多帅哥的~~（bebe don jealous ya XD）

听课的时候好闷哦~~第一天就讲要做什么什么assignment的，而且是要grouping的，我一个朋友都没有要怎样找member叻？？？每个人都有自己的朋友，而且看起来好像认识很久了的。最糟的是要用电脑找schedule。。。我最不会做这写东西咯~~~现在我最想是先认识一些朋友能帮上忙的咯。天啊！！！！谁能救救我？？？？

课到10。30am就玩了，明天8。00am 到6.00pm的课，累死人咯！！回的时候，在巴士站可以说是认识到朋友了咯。本来不敢的，可是为了要认识朋友就鼓起勇气认识她咯。虽然她是马来人，可是我之前的好朋友就是马来人哦~和她哈拉聊了course和自己一下咯。也交换了号码~~就将咯。

hmmm...就希望明天会更好。可以认识多写朋友咯。 加油加油~~~

~~大收获~~

我的太阳眼镜


我的SUB衣

我的SUB包包




哈哈~~好开心哦~~今天买了蛮多东西的，下午和家人去mid valley逛说要买包包咯。。。
就走了很多间，大多数都是上班族的包包，去看了SEED还蛮不错的，只是它的design对我来讲有点夸张吧？我是要来上学用罢了。

其实我也看中了FOSSIL和CK的包包咯。可是discount了还要rm400++ 不能咯。还有FOSSIL的手表我蛮喜欢的咯。。。rm300++叻~~~好可惜哦~~
到了最后没买回家咯。

过后就去dinner，dinner完了就去ioi mall。先是到处走咯，过后就进了ENGLAND的眼镜店，一个rm400++的太阳眼镜60%discount后变rm190。买了下来~~~哈哈~~~开心死了。。

过后在去看包包咯。走进了SUB，真的辛好没买SEED的包包，不染我真的会后悔死，可是价钱就比SEED贵多点点咯~~也在SUB买了件衣~~~哈哈~~~

买完了就去TGIF和东西，我喝long island iced tea我阿姨喝green apple slush其他人都在WENDY'S吃饱了=.=
我喝完了我的long island觉得有点醉了，还想呕，辛好没有咯。。。

回到家，好累哦~~就开始写了~~~
好咯，要睡了。。

~~奇怪的幸运~~

很讨厌这line啊。。。写完了东西又post不到，又要我从新写过。。。
这几天都在拉肚子。好难受哦。本来今天的orientation是到4。30pm的，都不懂是福还是祸，我和lecturel说我拉肚子不舒服，想早走，她们就简单的和我讲解，10。30am我就可以回家了。。。在college时我察觉到有位蛮帅的师兄瞄了我几次，不东懂他是不是呢？还是我想太多了？我还蛮想去和他搭讪的。哈哈~~~~
到了我爸妈的店，我阿姨说要载我外公外婆去mid valley吃东西，那我就跟咯。吃完后，我外公竟然在大庭广众说，“ah boy 你去问那个人有没有卖你那个laisi的药。”还说的蛮大声的。那时我觉得好丢脸尴尬咯。真想找个洞把脸往那儿塞。
明天还有orientation哦。就是我们这些新人给senior玩咯。不懂要不要去呢？我又很想去见那位帅师兄，可是又怕那些senior会玩的过分。好矛盾哦。。

~~~开始~~~

星期三就开学了，又要从新适应所有的一切。好还怕哦。。。。不知道会发生什么事情呢？
好期待，好害怕，就感觉很奇怪。有紧张兴奋，又有担心忧虑感觉。很少写blog真的不懂要写些什么咚咚。就来要开学就身体不舒服，真差劲。希望不会好像之前呕吐了一个月后才能适应环境咯。