down graded

juz break wit him for few days but i felt like years rite now... seems like forever.... ppl been sayin i deserve in such situation indeed, but do u really hav to dig the shit out n put it rite infron of me again n again every after i tried to burry it? i keep on fear n hope tat every next second wil be the end my of life... i really wish this could go bac rite be4 where it begin... hope tat there isnt even a begin.... conductin some experiments tomolo. need alot of participants.. yet i still cant get any... hope everythin will go fine... haiz....