recently....

taking quite a time to back on board. juz quite alot things happen.
i somehow fail one of my last sem paper, therefore got to retake it.
but tat lecturer she is juz so nuts. quiz, clean, sanitizer...
yet i m having 2 of her class this sem. juz hope i can pass or maybe juz C- i would be happy enough

recently somethin when wrong wit my love relationship.
there are some issue between us. the core issue is from me.
this issues may not be easy to handle and take in with.
i juz gave em' a way to break up as i felt em' wan this break up.
time is consuming, its pain. i do need people to support and be there for me.
friends could be an alternative but they can never replace the place.
moreover i do not hav much friends. though i m havin a very close friends but that is juz not enough.
there are alot of thoughts n opinion i wanted to post on facebook, but i m juz too worry that will give em' too much pressure to think its em' responsible to be with me.
i really wanna know wat shall i do now.
am i afford to lose em? what gonna happen if we break up? shall i make the break up decision to avoid em to struggle in the decision? or shall i give up myself?

i do know it sounds stupid, those who at japan are struggling to survive yet i m at a safe, comfy place person would like to end things like this. there was some moment, i was hoping i m havin a vacation at japan.

anyway, juz hope tat they can rest in peace and the rest live with peace.

go to stay strong n not to cry...