lately i m kinda into fishes, i bought alot fishes especially guppy fish. i dono why they die so easily but the other type of fish i bought r still alive. 2 of the fish gave birth to alot babies. another mummy fish die wit her stomach full of babies, this is sad. hopefully no fish will die anymore.
anyway, those death fish i use it to feed my 2 cute turtle~~ huhu~~
maybe cuz i fed them wit fish, they seems healthier compare to juz feedin them wit the solid food i bought from the shop (if u get wat i mean).
juz started my class again for second week. my second sem in first year for my pscyhology now. i was so hopin i got holiday on thurs n fri or maybe 2 day off. unfortunately i onli got a day off on thurs, suppose i got a day off on tues too but hav to the the elective this week or else next sem hav more subject to complete. tats a no way for me~
juz havin a 2 hrs class for tues n wed, so tiring. feel like don even wanna go. plus havin a mental disorder lecture, its makin my college life harder. i remember all the senior said she hav OCD aka obsessive-compulsive disoreder means worry something not done well n keep on check back, something like tat. she gave quizes every week, assignments in class n hav to submit at the end of the class(wit time limits too). she don use projector, not even microphone. how can we really learn like this?? the class is so huge, wat ever she write on the board not everyone in the hall can see it.
i know i cant rush love or even friendship but seems then i hav none for these to thing. yes, i do hav fren in college but not much n not all r sincere. i do really mind wat ppl thinks about me, i do concern alot. tats y my secondary fren used to sy i m "perasan" haha~~
ever since i m single, i do try to find another one but i dono y i cant get the one yet. izit becuz i ask for too much? or i m the kind tat no one wants? lately i been somehow rejected by few guy in a row. there gud lookin gud guy find me but they seems juz wanna hav sex, even the old n ugly one. there is one guy he looks real nice to me, mature but i feel tat he is kinda chauvinism. whenever i ask more about him, he will start to raise up his tone, i ask about his job n his family be4 at the end he scolded me n hang up the phone. til now he haven contact me. i try to call him for few days after tat happen but he din answer my call. there r ppl turn to "silence mode" after meetin wit them i guess i don hav to say much about this, most ppl face such problems rite. its really hard to handle it. the next one say he try hard to like me but he cant. sounds so funny huh? haiz... really cant rush or force love....
i pray so hard for the one who really care me n love me at the sametime i care n love him so much will show up soon. i dono whether my wish is heard or not. maybe is heard but juz tat the wish was not granted.
anyway, my birthday coming soon. i bet beside my family not much or barely one will remember it. most probably will juz celebrate wit family again. it will be my 21st birthday next year. i really wish not to be the same again. wish for something new n different or maybe someone special. sigh..... gud luck n all. god bless you.
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