~~understanding~~

is it really that hard to get a person to understand you? it seems like so hard to communicate with other n let them know wat i m thinkin. juz a simple "nevermind" this person can think til tat i m angry with him n said "this will be last msg from u, u don deserve my love bla bla bla".
he ask me am i angry, while i juz replied him wit a NVM, does tat really mean alot to you????? isit becuz u r this species thats y u guys often act like this???

i really hate who i m, wat i am n where i am. non of the things tat is me can make me feel glad n happy or even proud of. i dislike my fren, i hate my family, my life is ruin, the ppl i met r like shit n hell wat else i can be happy wit in this dum fuck life.

being insult, accuse, left alone, abandon, ignore....
if u r reading this and u hav an opinion tat is goin to against me, well pls shut the fuck up. cuz i don wanna listen. u did not go through the life i m havin, this is a place for me to release. not for u to judge. since i cant judge no one, so no one can judge me!

GOD kills

~~leaving dead~~

it been ages i never come to talk here. something big juz happened. i juz got myself into a big trouble which turn me to a living dead...

i m so unlucky by havin it. i hav no idea "wat" give this to me. everytime i told this to those i think who need to know, they changed so fast within one sec to another. m i consider strong? i cant even cry for wat happen. i seems so calm infront ppl. but deep inside i do feel like wanna end this life for gud. i don wan live in such torture. onli the closest n know me well willin to accept me but not the rest.

shall i end it for gud? or let things be. i juz feel sorry for those who should really know....